And now it seems I’ve come to an impasse

I’ve now become overwhelmed with everything to the point that a) it feels like a chore and b) I’m using the overwhelm of having “so much on my plate” as the distraction of a lifetime. So, I’ll use what I’ve brought forth as often as recovery allows me. I will make a marked effort toContinue reading “And now it seems I’ve come to an impasse”

I’ve been behind with a lot of things.

And I’m not going to lie, the CPTSD diagnosis has been an eye opener. And although I’m not receiving negative backlash and I have a large pool of ideas, part of the process of recovery is learning to take the time off needed to recover. It only takes one more post to keep going right?Continue reading “I’ve been behind with a lot of things.”

The letter I am sending to the medical provider.

To the medical provider who verbally assaulted me while I was making an attempt to save my own life, you have no right being involved with medicine. Here is a recount of MY experience with YOU as a provider: I get an appointment in October and I am relieved because I need to see someoneContinue reading “The letter I am sending to the medical provider.”

A RANT about healthcare.

CW CUSSING. So, I have been out on a medical leave since late in November because of PTSD issues and anxiety. And I really have a hard time dealing with the medical stuff because of all the appointments they want me to go to and I just can’t keep up with any of it becauseContinue reading “A RANT about healthcare.”

Depression Monologue pt.1

I wrote some of this a couple years ago, and then while I felt like I was on a roll, and I couldn’t keep them up because I wasn’t able to handle  the criticism that came from the source I was talking about. Now I know better and I want my story heard. I wasContinue reading “Depression Monologue pt.1”

Cannabis rice cereal and marshmallow treats. (Also chocolate and peanut butter dipped)

I was out running some errands and helping my aunt. When I got home I decided to do the dipping. There’s a recipe to follow, so stay tuned… I love this painting, it means so much to me, and I look at it often. My husband suggested using it for a backdrop for my edibles,Continue reading “Cannabis rice cereal and marshmallow treats. (Also chocolate and peanut butter dipped)”

I’m High and I want to make some Candy.

My next intense study in the world of making cannabis edibles is candy making. I have already dabbled in it, and then I took a break for mental health, which if you follow me or are paying attention I have an undiagnosed mental illness. There is some speculation from several people, mostly doctors that IContinue reading “I’m High and I want to make some Candy.”

I finally got around to doing it….

I have finally acquired the domain name, something i’ve been putting off for 2 years! and really longer. I then had a weird week where I wrote things but felt awkward posting. It was like, all of a sudden, I could not get my butt in gear to post anything… again… wtf really, spend money,Continue reading “I finally got around to doing it….”